Have you ever been so busy with life, you step into the kitchen only to come face to face with a pile of dirty dishes? I believe prayer, Faith, and life can be like that sink full of dirty dishes, where prayer and faith are the soap and water. You don’t know where to start, you just know you need to start. There will be times where it gets messy, but you may also find things become clearer as you go along.
I’ve mentioned in one of my previous articles, I used to be a nurse. I spent years and thousands of dollars on my Bachelor’s degree in nursing because I was told I was going to need it. Quite frankly, I went to college because I was told I needed an education. However, the only thing I’ve every actually dreamed of doing, consistently, was be a stay at home wife and mom. I’m more family oriented. But I went to school and got a job I thought I wanted, that I ended up resenting.
Do you ever feel like a failure? Yeah. Me too. I feel as though I’m not doing enough or being enough. Whatever it is. I feel so lost and stuck that I just don’t know where to turn. Well, that’s not quite the case. I can turn to God.
But exactly how do I do that? How do I just turn to God. Well, that’s a good question. Sit with Him. Don’t bring your prayer list with you. Simply sit in His presence.
There are times I tell myself multiple times “ I don’t know what I’m doing with my life.” I get so frustrated because I see my best friend having a baby and buying a house. That jealousy boils down to the fact she has stability I can see. My stability should be in Christ. My trust in Christ. Even though I can’t see what God is doing, but I have to trust Him. But, man, is that hard to do sometimes. Why? Because we want to see the plan, to know where we’re going and when we’re gonna get there. However, that’s not true trust in Christ. That is not true faith because as it says in Hebrews 11:1:
“Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.”
Hebrews 11:1 (NIV)
I have no idea how I’m going to make a sustainable income, but God does. I feel as though I’m in limbo, but God know were I’m headed (see Proverbs 16:9).
My faith in God waivers, but He does not waiver in His faithfulness (see Hebrews 13:8).
I believe, even though there is so much unknown in my life, so much I do not see, I can trust God. I can trust Him because He sees the bigger picture. He sees and hears things I do not. I have assurance through my faith in Christ.
I don’t know where I’m going, but, thank God, I don’t have to.
I don’t know what the future holds, none of us do, but God does. I have to think, but God. But God.
My thoughts scream “who am I,” “what am I doing with my life,” and “why.” I just don’t understand, but God. But God. You see, if we knew the plan for our lives or what was going to happen, we wouldn’t need to trust God.
Life can get so chaotic that we pile everything on top of everything else, our “to do” lists, jobs, responsibilities, hobbies, etc. This happens until we have this mound of “dirty dishes.”
I’ve read once, when things seem out of control in life, there’s wisdom in simplicity. Just as God can be heard more clearly in the quiet moments of our lives.
Trust can be a difficult concept for those going through difficult times, but it’s a necessity in our relationship with Christ. Not easy, but a necessity nonetheless. God knows what He’s doing. Remember, He sees the bigger picture, whereas we only see a fraction.